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Only Then
By Travis Mossotti
The Hemingway Short
Story
is a stubby, torpedo
shaped cigar
that responds well to
fire. It lasts
in the way we last:
smoke
of our body becoming
air,
becoming breeze, becoming
the cold front that
slams its thick
skull against a tree,
against a forest,
against the town, where
as a boy,
I slept with a brown
teddy bear
—threadbare buttons
in
its grooved sockets—that
bear
had seen it all come
and go
and knew the familiar
sting
of quarrelsome parents
lighting
the hallway, had often
buried
itself in the backyard
under
the silver maple: a
makeshift
graveyard where the
sun
fell to its knees, the
winsome
sun pressing a shadow
against
another grave. I left
flowers.
My father would light
those
stubby brown cigars
and lean
over the rail of the
back deck
like a Buddhist shaving
his head
in the dark; he would
smoke and
stare past the forest
and imagine
the coming winter and
the next
and before long his
parturient
gaze fell back upon
the house,
and I could smell the
rush
of spent tobacco as
he brushed
past. I can smell it
now. We
don’t talk about
such things
in polite conversation
although
I wish we could. Then
I could
show you the night a
tree fell
on our house, the truculent
wind escaping the forest’s
lungs,
the lightning bluing
our crushed
wooden deck, my mother’s
ruffled
blackwatch nightgown,
felled tree
snug against the roof,
a hundred years
of growing towards this
scene.
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Travis Mossotti is enrolled
in the MFA program at SIUC and has poetry in current or forthcoming issues of Another
Chicago Magazine, Antioch Review, Cream
City Review, Dark Horse, Fourth River, New Delta
Review, New York Quarterly, North American
Review, Passages North, Rattle,
RHINO, Southern Humanities Review, and
Subtropics. In 2009, he has been awarded the James Hearst Poetry Prize and an Academy of American Poets Prize.
He was finalist for the Gulf Coast Poetry Prize, and his first book-length manuscript was a finalist for the National Poetry
Series.
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