Elisha Webster Emerson
I went to the wilderness,
once
I went to the wilderness,
once.
I left a lover to get
there
and two homes. I traveled
marshland, mainland, grassland.
I watched the wild sky
expand,
buckle, and strain against
the air.
The mountains roared
and moved
beneath the light, indifferent
light,
coral light, crimson
light, cerebral blue.
The trees laughed real
low. It’s true,
they multiply behind
your back and out of sight.
Without street, store,
or sidewalk,
the wilderness unwound
unbounded,
then spiraled into itself
like a shell
or a worm taking its
tail
into its tiny mouth
to feed.
The wilderness is at
first gasp a swoon,
a sweeping outward of
august proportions,
footprints in snow,
clean air, a muse,
a welcome home, a balm
of wounds,
at first, its dark nature
softens.
But be careful: That
loud dark will stalk you.
It will eat you if you
stop singing
out your warning, though
it cares nothing for poetry.
It is poetry.
Take a dog. Bring a
gun, tiptoe
careful not to wake
what, in dream will eventually find you
like it found me. Those
days I was surprised to find
myself following myself,
and I’m not talking
long voyages, I’m
talking a short walk down the hall. Walking
my head, that object,
as if it were a balloon on string.
I fled the wilderness,
bewildered by light,
flung songs against
its impossible magnitude,
that miniscule worm.
I went to the wilderness,
once
and now the wilderness
comes to me.
Several of Elisha Webster Emerson’s short stories
and essays have been published, most recently in ALL THINGS GIRL. Her blog, MY INCONVENIENT BODY, was honored Nickelodeon's
Parents' Pick Award in 2009. Her novel, THE ABORTIONIST, currently resides in the hands of her agent, Jon Sternfeld.